February 5, 2012
I have never talked to someone for so long in a really long time. It feels strange to be able to talk to someone and not give a shit for how they will take it because they have heard worse and know more. Except, there is this feeling that I am slowly starting to not like them anymore. I hate that. He doesn’t deserve that, especially after putting himself out there.
There are just things in his personality that bothers me. He talks to much about his body and how badass he is because he is able to beat up people and that a lot of people are afraid to even start fights with him. I mean kudos for him, but I am not looking for someone who frightens someone. I mean it is also kind of good for me because I know I will be well protected but…I don’t know it is just strange. I am not used to this much cockiness. Maybe he is trying really hard to impress me, but he doesn’t have to. He already has me, I like him. But if he keeps acting this way and he doesn’t catch on that all I do is giggle and go “uh huh” when he talks about his body or about beating people up, I think I’ll just have to end it…
I don’t want to. I like him. We have quite a bit in common and it is refreshing to have someone who has an obsession with working out like I do. Our views on relationships, how some people act and their personalities, parents, drugs, sex, and life overall. I’ve never really let someone in like that, with the exception of a few people.
I don’t know what to do! Not only that but he acts sort of stupid sometimes…AND he doesn’t like it when I talk about my friends. Especially those who are guys…maybe it is because he is jealous that they get to see me more than he does, but he told me he would like to be in a relationship where he doesn’t have to worry about seeing the girl all the time. Like maybe seeing every once a week or so. I mean I do sort of get insecure when I think about him hanging out with his friends who are girls but no one will ever not interact with the opposite sex so I don’t get too insecure. And neither should he…oh well.
I will just see how this relationship goes. But for right now, I like him and we have a lot in common. I am clinging to the good things about him and not the bad because I am pretty sure there are things about me that he doesn’t like or is annoyed with so I should just accept him and his flaws.
