February 24, 2012
I am so relieved, that day I really thought he was going to breakup with me because I wouldn’t have sex with him again. But it wasn’t because of that, it was because my Mom was so involved in our relationship that it was weird, he felt like he was dating my Mom more than he was dating me. Or more like, she was dictating our relationship, saying we couldn’t do this or I was banned from doing this or that with him. He even talked about with his Dad, so even if his Dad thought my Mom should chill it on being in our relationship, and mind you his dad is in his late fifties so he’s got a little more knowledge and experience on my Mom, plus he was in the Navy. Not sure if that earns him any kudos when it comes to relationships but it is a reassuring thought.
Anyways, it is going to be hard to keep things from my Mom since we have such an open relationship. It is ridiculous how open it is, my Mom and me talk about almost everything. We have a relationship that not many people have with their Mom’s and I am thankful about that, but I feel like if I don’t slack off a little, my relationship with my boyfriend will end. And I really don’t want that.
I am not saying I am going to completely stop talking to my Mom about things, but when it comes to my boyfriend and I, some things will just be censored. I love my Mom to death, and hopefully this doesn’t ruin the trust she has in me, because even though I screwed up my promises about sex, I am still a trustworthy person. That won’t change, I won’t do anything that will cause anymore disappointment from her. One of the worst feelings a child could instill on their parents is disappointment and I don’t want that. I love her to death to want to hurt her or cause her to feel pain in any way or form.
I love you Mom.